It's been just over a year since I left my student days behind me and made the move down to Wellington. Since then, an abundance of new people have come into my life, and this has re-highlighted the funny situation that occurs whenever personal friends and/or colleagues somehow discover this website. My day job has absolutely nothing to do with fashion, media or written/visual creativity (making powerpoint presentations is probably about as close as it gets). And it's only when people ask about this blog that I always realise how absolutely narcissistic and slightly ridiculous the whole concept seems. "Oh yeah, I just take photos of myself wearing nice clothes and then put them on this website." What an odd thing to say out loud.
I was recently reminded of the term 'creative confidence' and remembered just how awesome of a concept it is. As a child, our creative confidence is through the roof. We're encouraged to imagine and draw and sculpt and create such ridiculous and amazing things without a care as to what others may think. But as we grow up, the perspective changes. Judgement and comparisons quash that confidence and the majority of us never pick up a crayon ever again.
There are various reasons why I haven't created a blog post in the last 6 months, and this is definitely one of them. I lost the creative confidence I had when I first started this blog. When I was posting for my own enjoyment instead of website hits and followers. When I was happy with my self-taken tripod photos instead of trying to perfect every shot. When I did this just for fun and for myself. I'll always have an obsession for clothes and fashion and I hope it will continue to inspire me and those around me as the years go on. So here I am, trying to find that confidence again as an older but not-that-much wiser adult human being. No promises, but I'll be sure to keep you updated.