It's been just over a year since I left my student days behind me and made the move down to Wellington. Since then, an abundance of new people have come into my life, and this has re-highlighted the funny situation that occurs whenever personal friends and/or colleagues somehow discover this website. My day job has absolutely nothing to do with fashion, media or written/visual creativity (making powerpoint presentations is probably about as close as it gets). And it's only when people ask about this blog that I always realise how absolutely narcissistic and slightly ridiculous the whole concept seems. "Oh yeah, I just take photos of myself wearing nice clothes and then put them on this website." What an odd thing to say out loud..
I was recently reminded of the term 'creative confidence' and remembered just how much I like this idea. As a child, our creative confidence is through the roof. We're encouraged to imagine and draw and sculpt and create such crazy and amazing things without a care as to what others may think. But as we grow up, the perspective changes. Self-doubt, judgement and societal norms quash that confidence and the majority of us never pick up a crayon ever again.
There are various reasons why I haven't created a blog post in the last 6 months, and this is definitely one of them. I lost the creative confidence I had when I first started this blog. When I was posting for my own enjoyment instead of website hits and followers. When I was happy with my self-taken tripod photos instead of trying to perfect every shot. When I did this just for fun and for myself. So here I am, trying to find that confidence again as an older but not-that-much wiser adult human being. My first (and long overdue) post for the year, and a wordy one at that. I know I'll always have an obsession for clothes and fashion, and I hope it will continue to inspire me and those around me as the years go on. No promises, but I'll be sure to keep you updated.

Yay! Good on you Helen! 😁
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